I slept very late last night, so woke up at noon.
What sets the standard of an ideal life–happy or contented life? Money? Love? Passion? Relationship? Security? Knowledge? Respect? What? I thought deep over this question and found the answer that the only factor that distinguishes a loser from a winner is: Time. Not necessarily, in my opinion, well-spent time, because then I need to define well-spent. Time should be spent passionately in any work that you enjoy and wish to continue. Flow. Remember this term? Those who are fashionably into Emotional Intelligence must be familiar with this. Losing sense of whereabout and other intruding wh-questions breeding sheer contemplation which bears no result in terms of action and activity, when you are overindulgent in some pleasurable work, e.g. reading a novel, watching a movie, sharing knowledge with others in writing (as I am doing right now), and, some say, even sex. This decides who wins and who loses.
But what is winning and what is losing? No need to go into philosophical debate over it. I only know that I feel good when I am busy, just busy. Teaching my niece Psychology, or reading a book, or browsing some informative, interesting website, surfing the Internet, or just chatting. It’s another matter that I also keep in mind most of the time that I have to improve my writing skill to become a good writer. Someone who can write effortlessly on any topic under the sun.
First, out of habit, developed over a period of time as a result of cognitive passivity, I doubted I needed to live by the principle I adhered to before as it did no service by halting the progress of my life and engendering inaction. I am the same incorrigible procrastinator, perfectionist who knows everyhing in the head but nothing out in the real world when it comes to action. I should…forget it…keep busy!
I remember a few feelings during the whole day that might be interesting to read about. I felt excited when contacted by Tamkeen Malik, the lady who was in NIP when I was studying there and who in my opinion is one of the most intelligent women I ever saw in my life although I seldom had chances of being impressed by the intelligence of a woman. I had also attended a workshop of Red Crescent Society with her in 2007. She wrote something on my wall on Facebook and was pleased to accept my offer of friendship. I also today unsuscribed a Yahoo Group, which sent me second time an email showcasing a hard-core sexual content. Honestly, I enjoy pornography but never dare to flaunt my indulgence.
Nothing phenomenal happenned today that might be registered in today’s account, otherwise. I met my friend, went to my niece, went out for shopping, read a few articles from Reader’s Digest, my favorite magazine, visited a few sites on the Internet, checked Facebook site again, and again. And that’s all.
I only had to be philosophical to fill this space tonight. Out of a sense of duty. I wish I could experience flow quite more often than once or twice. GOOD NIGHT!
